The It Gets Better Project was created and designed specifically for LGBTQIA2S+ folks who are battling bullying, mental illness and other challenges. It is an amazing resource for these things and I highly recommend it! Go to www.itgetsbetter.org for more info. 
That’s not exactly what I wanted to write about today; my It Gets Better moment is about depression, specifically post partum depression. I’ve struggled off and on for 12 years with it now and had a bit of a breakthrough yesterday. I’m starting a new job soon (again? Again! Yay!) and realized I’ll be able to be home with the kids a lot more, and instead of dreading it or having it cause anxiety, I’m actually looking forward to it! Gabe is a bit older and capable of babysitting as needed, Ryan is pitching in a lot more in so many ways, and so I don’t feel like I’m going to drown in domesticity. After work I’ll be home in time to do bedtime and check in about school and all those little things I miss weeks at a time working for CashMoney.
For a long time I didn’t think I would make any more mental progress, that my brain was as good as it was going to get. I’m so glad I was wrong! I’ll never be the person I was before I had Gabe, but the person I am is pretty cool too. She takes more naps, she’s not as hard on herself, her house is a bit messier but then again, so is her brain. A huge part of why I made it this far is Ryan; if it wasn’t for his compassion, patience and non-judgemental attitude I would probably still be in a fairly dark place. He *always* has the time and energy, and gives me space to process my feelings, with him through listening and enormous hugs or alone until I’m ready to share. He’s better than any therapist because he’s been with me since the very beginning at the deepest darkest time. He doesn’t try to fix me; he knows that slowly but surely I’m repairing myself. His love is the glue that has been allowing me to put myself back together.
Never give up on yourself. Some days are going to be hard, awful even. But don’t give up. It’s true that we don’t know what tomorrow might bring. It’s worth it to stick around and see what might be coming with the next sunrise.
